And then sometimes… you’re wrong…

Let’s face it—my vet was stumped.  We thought we had this thing figured out, but then… maybe we didn’t?  There is no question that you can look at an x-ray of Dolly’s hoof and see a crack in the navicular bone.  I had dutifully gone home and applied shoes and padding as prescribed to relieve pressure on the crack, but there was no improvement—in fact—it might even be a teeny bit worse?  Either we weren’t fixing the problem correctly, or we weren’t fixing the correct problem.

For me, the immediate concern was getting to the vet with everything I would need to reapply the shoe and goo once we had treated the hoof.  It was one of those perfect, clear, winter mornings—23 degrees out.  I had to hitch up the trailer and collect everything on my F-14 launch checklist before loading up and heading out.   Somehow, I managed to pull this off and even hit the road a few minutes early.  Little did I realize that I was headed for yet another (even longer this time) marathon session of attempted diagnosis.

My vet wasn’t happy with the whole “it’s not improving” thing.  I tried to take credit for a bad shoeing job, but he said it looked really great and should have helped—so much for martyrdom!  So he blocked the hoof yet again.  It is a real testament to Dolly’s good nature that she is still putting up with all of the needle sticks.  And… um… well,… no improvement.  So he had me saddle up and ride (no mean feat when it has, by this time, warmed up to around 30.  Dolly was “a bit fresh,” as they say.) Then we blocked higher, then ride some more, then ultrasound, lather, rinse repeat.  He was not ruling out anything.  (There was even a fellow there who has been using infrared thermography to diagnose lamenesses and he had this guy check everything from the neck down.)   After 4 hours, much discussion, ultrasound and many x-rays, ride in circles at a trot,  and numbing Dolly’s leg to the point where she kept doing the classic “I can’t feel my leg!”   He finally found something.

On an x-ray of her knee, he found an old fracture line and just above it, on the inside of the splint bone is a blind splint.  You can barely see it on the ultrasound.  He thinks it is putting pressure on the nerve which is causing the pain—a neuropathy!  That explains why there is no swelling or heat.  It also explains why shoeing, stem cell therapy and bute didn’t help, and why it didn’t get worse (or better) with more riding. Shoeing changes the forces on the suspensory ligament, which changes how it applies pressure to the nerve, so it also explains why she might have gotten a bit worse.  There may also be some involvement with the navicular bone although it is hard to say how much.

So he shot it up with cortisone in the hopes of relieving it and we will see how it pans out as I increase her riding over the next month or so.  Surgery is a possibility, but the more I read about it, the less I like the prognosis.  I drove home feeling a bit like a deflated balloon.  What more could be wrong with her?   And is this really “it,” or is there something else lurking in there that we haven’t found yet—grrr…

And the punch line of this whole affair?  We never did pull that shoe and inject the hoof, so I didn’t have to reapply it complete with messy goo—at least I can be happy about that part!

Sometimes when you’re right–that’s not a good thing…

There are some phrases you don’t ever want to hear your vet say.  Like “Holy Crap!” for example.  I heard this two years ago as the vet examined an ultrasound of Dolly’s hind leg.  Roughly translated, it means “this is going to cost you a lot!”  I had taken her in for what I thought was a lameness in her right front hoof.  The vet watched her trot around and around and finally had me saddle up and ride her around at a trot.  Finally, he said he thought it was in the hind leg, not the front hoof, which led to the ultrasound, which led to “Holy Crap!”  And yes, it led to me spending a large chunk of money trying to make things right.  Dolly had torn the suspensory ligament nearly completely off of where it attaches at the hock.  If it wasn’t for stem cell therapy, Dolly would be a broodmare right now.

The vet told me the success rate with stem cell therapy was running around 94%, so as a math teacher, I figured this was a pretty good bet.  Of course, you always wake up late at night wondering if you are going to fall into the 6% it doesn’t work on, but then you take a benedryl and go back to sleep.  So I spent enough money on stem cell therapy to buy a couple of horses, justifying it because Dolly is a nice horse and was only 7 years old at the time and because I really don’t want to pay to feed another couple of horses (who will probably tear their suspensory ligaments and also need stem cell therapy).  In the end, I probably still saved money!

The first thing that happens in SCT is that they remove a bunch of fat cells from the horse’s rump.  Those get sent off to the company, which magically transforms them into stem cells and sends them back to the vet’s office where they are injected into the horse at the site of the injury.  (I figure some human doctor is bound to capitalize on this soon:  “We specialize in liposuction and stem cell therapy!  Fix your injuries and lose inches off your waist!”) Naturally, the diagnosis came in November so the actual therapy took place right before Christmas.  There’s nothing like trying to rehab a horse after stem cell therapy… in December… in Nevada.  “Hand walk,” the instructions said—more like flying a kite.  I remember having David plow me a track through 8 inches of snow with the tractor so that I could walk her.

So after months of careful rehab, Dolly finally seemed to have recovered.  My vet gave me the go ahead to do whatever I wanted with her.  Except she was still off on the right front hoof!  How off was she?  You know how they grade lamenesses 1 to 5?  This was like a grade 0.5 lameness.  So I fiddled and I farted around.  I tried barefoot, barefoot with boots, boots with pads, glue on shoes, rubber glue on shoes, rubber shoes with pads, aluminum shoes with pads, aluminum shoes without pads, hopping up and down on one foot and chanting mantras—none of it really helped.  I began to call it her “offishness.”  It had a life of its own.  I was worried that it was her hind leg still, so I kept having the vet check that instead of just saying “I’ll pay for x-rays.  Take a bunch of that hoof!”  (Like I should have.) Prescription—keep on riding.

Then two things happened—Mom fell and broke her hip, necessitating a lot of time off for Dolly, and Easyboot announced the introduction of the Glove in new wide sizes.  So I pulled Dolly’s shoes and ordered a pair.  I was so excited when I received my new boots.  I put them on the next day and they fit perfectly!  I saddled up, put Dolly on line to warm up… and she was lamer than ever!  (And this after a month’s rest.)  Put on the old boots—not so lame.  Tried frog pads in old boots—wow was she lame!  Whatever it was, I knew it was in the heel and I finally knew I was right—there was something wrong with that hoof!  The tightness of the new boot irritated it and pressure under the frog did the same.

This time I got smart.  I videotaped Dolly trotting around in my arena with and without a rider and with and without boots.  David (aka Hollywood Dave) used his movie making skills to burn this onto a DVD which I then took to the vet with me.  He finally saw what I was seeing!  So we x-rayed the living daylights out of the right front hoof.  This time, he said “That’s interesting,” when he saw the x-ray.  Turns out she has a cracked Navicular bone.  (I never even knew they could break the navicular bone, but it turns out they can.  Hers is just cracked.  If she had broken it, she would have been dead lame.) I guess now we’ll see how “That’s interesting” compares to “Holy Crap!” on the grand scale of vet statement to repair expense proportionality.

The vet thinks she did it sometime in the last year.  I will defer to his professional opinion, but I suspect it could have happened a lot earlier since she has been lame for a long time.  I suspect that this could be the original lameness I took her in for two years ago and it was just overshadowed by the suspensory injury.  Still, the vet is very hopeful that we can bring her back to soundness.  His prescription is to put on aluminum shoes that are very similar to the Natural Balance shoes I was using only they have a bit more extreme breakover and wider web in the heel, and then pad her up with Vettec products to support the sole and decrease pressure on the navicular bone.  The nice thing about shoeing my own horse is that he just handed me a pair of shoes—no long explanations necessary.

So that weekend, I pulled out all of my equipment, sharpened my knives, rounded up my hammers, which always seem to be wandering off somewhere, and pulled out my big box-o-Vettec products.  The actual process of attaching the shoes is not really a big deal (don’t tell my back that, though)—it’s applying the padding that is a challenge.  Using any of the Vettec products is kind of like flying a fully armed F-14 off of an aircraft carrier.  I actually need to create a checklist so that I won’t forget anything before starting.  It would help if I installed a hitching post up by the garage so I could tie the horse up and go grab the three things I forgot, but as soon as I install one, it is going to be in the way of some new home improvement project and I really don’t want to have to move the darned thing!  First, you have to have stuff to clean the hoof with—denatured alcohol, wire brushes, couple of nails, screwdriver, hoof knife, hoof pick, because the hoof has got to be clean.  Next, you need stuff to dry the hoof—rags, heat gun, extension cord for the heat gun, remember to plug in the extension cord for the heat gun, because the hoof has got to be dry.  Then you’ve got your Vettec products—tube of compound, compound gun, nippers to open the tube of compound, scissors to cut the plastic wrapping around the tube of compound, gloves to protect your hands from the compound, mixing tips to put on to the tube of compound.  I would keep going, but you get the idea, and besides I know I’ve left out about 23 of the most essential steps in the process.  (Next time, I’ll write that checklist!)

Anyway, this time I got through the whole padding process without any major disasters.  Last time, Dolly jerked her leg and broke the mixing tip while I was dispensing the product and I managed to spew Equi-build all over my shoe, my leg, Dolly’s leg, and the ground before shutting off the gun.  You can buy these sticky cardboard squares that you put over the shoe either before dispensing or after you are done so that you can set the hoof down while it cures.  I have discovered that these, also, are a disaster waiting to happen if you don’t trim them down to a hoof shape before using them.  Dolly always seems to manage to step on the corner of the cardboard with the other hoof, yank the whole thing off, then set the hoof down in the gravel before I can stop her embedding hunks of driveway gravel into the padding which, I’m pretty certain, are counterproductive to the whole padding process.  This time, I realized after getting all of the goo where I wanted it and secured with a cardboard cover (which I had remembered to pre-cut to fit) in both hooves that I’d forgotten the most important piece of equipment—a chair to sit in while I wait for the stuff to cure completely.

And the end result?  She’s still lame…  So it’s back to the vet next week.  He wants to inject the hoof with Adequan or Legend (I think) to help take the residual pain out of the injury.  I also want to take a “thumbtack x-ray” where you put a standard thumbtack in the tip of the frog, then do an x-ray from the side.  The tack isn’t long enough to cause damage, but it shows up on the x-ray really well so that you know exactly where the tip of the frog is located in relation to the navicular bone.  That way, I can do a better job of relieving pressure on the navicular bone when I apply the compound.  I used the very scientific method of basically guessing this time.  And then we’ll see.  We’ll see how much “That’s interesting” is really gonna cost.

Walking on the land

It is the last day of daylight savings time and I just have time to do something with the horse.  I don’t really have time to saddle up and ride, so my choices are ride bareback or go “walkies.”  Since it is just above freezing with a cold wind outside, and since I haven’t ridden all week, I decide on a walk.  First, I must don the appropriate amount of layering—long underwear, sweats, long sleeved t-shirt, fleece jacket, gloves, neck gaiter and headband.  I test it out on the back porch—brrr…  I go back in the house and add a pair of wind pants.  Okay, now I think I’m ready.  The wind pants mean that I won’t be able to hop on bareback if I feel like riding at some point.  Have you ever tried to ride in wind pants?  It’s like trying to ride a greased pig!

I decide that today will be a “cookie” walk.  Usually I don’t carry cookies , but I have found that if I do an occasional cookie walk—where I stuff my pockets full of goodies and let them know it—the effect lasts a good long time.  And for these girls at least, I guess hope springs eternal because they generally stay with me even when they know I don’t have anything.  They must figure I have the power to magically conjure cookies on a moments notice, so they’re not taking any chances.  Only they have to earn their cookies.  They have to go off and graze, then put effort into coming back to me—only then do they get the reward.

I let them out, and Annie immediately begins shadowing me.

“Cookie?” is her obvious question.

“No cookie,” I say, gently shooing her away.

Dolly closes in from the other side “Did you give Annie a cookie?  Because I want one too then!”

“No cookie,” I repeat, gently shooing her the other way “ you have to earn them.”

So we wander down the ridge and they finally begin moving off to look for the clumps of dried grass that are still hiding among the sagebrush.  As we leave our property, Dolly stays behind to munch on some weeds then trots to catch up.  I reward her with a cookie.  Annie trots over indignant, so she earns one also.  It becomes a competition between them.  They watch each other as closely as they watch me.

We reach the bluff that overlooks a large wash.  It is a short steep drop into the wash proper.  The girls stop to graze on some nice clumps of grass at the top of the bluff.  As I slither down the hill, I wonder how long it will be before the angry scars of recent flash flooding will fade away.  The hillside is cut by dozens of parallel erosion channels leading down into the wash.  The wash itself is a mess.  Where there used to be a soft sandy floor, there is only hardpan and harsh gravel.  The banks no longer slope easily, but are cut deep and jagged.  I hear both Dolly and Annie clattering down the bank behind me.  Dolly finishes with a flourish by cantering through the sagebrush and coming to a screeching halt beside me.

“Cookie?”  Yep.

We choose to cross this wasteland and seek the nicer footing above the far bank.   Dolly gives a little hop and halfhearted trot—sorry, not enough effort.  We continue across the wash to the far bluff where there is an abundance of bunch grass.  Both Dolly and Annie know this place and immediately tuck in.  I find a nice rock halfway up the bluff and sit to enjoy the world around me for a while.   Grey clouds punctuate a crystal clear winter sky.  To the west are the strato-cumulus, soft and fluffy, but to the east are dark grey lenticulars, sculpted into fantastic shapes by the winds aloft.   It is the golden hour where the quality of light is at its best.  The sky to the east appears to be a darker shade of blue even though the sun is still above the horizon.

If I had enough talent to write poetry, this is the time and place I would most like to write about.  Too often, people mistake the desert for a barren wasteland, but it is not so.  Down below me, there is a sandy channel with the tracks of the hundreds of small animals who call this little area home.  There are ground squirrels and chipmunks and a whole multitude of rabbits living here along with dozens of lizards, their tails marking their tracks as reptilian in origin.  It is too cold for lizards or their shyer cousins the snakes right now, but during the summer, they dash away in all directions as I walk through.  There is a large covey of quail that roam this area and will sometimes explode in all directions when I venture too near. Their tracks are all there, telling me stories about the lives they lead.

In addition, there are the larger animals that prey on all of this fare—the coyotes, hawks and eagles that I will occasionally spot as I walk or ride the horse.  One of the most amazing things I have seen is a Golden Eagle taking wing from about ten feet away when I startled it away from a rabbit it was eating.  And there are the unseen animals—the pocket gophers and packrats and mice who only make their presence known by causing a mess in my haystack or horse trailer.   I have even spotted a few foxes over the years, though usually late at night when I was driving home.  They live there, all of these animals, because there is plenty of food in the form of bitterbrush, pine nuts, and the seeds of the many grasses and flowers that grow abundantly here if you know where and when to look for them.

Annie stops by for a scratch.  She knows I won’t give her a cookie, but she will stop by for a scratch just in case I make the offer.  She enjoys the scratch almost as much as the cookie anyway.  Dolly is slowly moving up the bluff now, so I climb to the top.  She canters the last few strides and earns another cookie.  Annie, of course gets hers as well.  We decide to head downhill today and make a big loop around to the left that will bring us back home.

Suddenly, a flock of birds rises out of the sagebrush and flows downhill like quicksilver.  The sun glints brightly off of their wings and they make a high pitched “chee, chee, chee…” as they fly.  Then another flock and another, rising with one fluid motion, then flying nap of the earth, skimming the top of the sagebrush in ever widening circles until it looks like a giant maelstrom of tiny birds.  And then they disappear, settling back into the sagebrush as suddenly as they ascended—invisible again to the outside world.

We find another patch of nice grass to graze on for a bit, then I continue to move off to the west.  There is too much grass here, though, and Dolly is thinking about ignoring me and moving away into better grazing so I move off in the opposite direction.  I find an unexpected ally in Annie who sees her chance to hog a few cookies as she follows me.  She almost makes it, but at the last moment, Dolly gallops after me and catches up just before Annie does.  They both get two cookies for leaving such good grass to be with me.  As I continue to walk down slope, paralleling the wash, Dolly canters off to the right, then circles around to stop right in front of me again—I think she has the idea!

I keep trying to get one or the other of them to pose for a picture with the big lenticular behind them against the bright blue sky, but they don’t cooperate.  We finally cross the wash again about a half a mile below where we did earlier and continue south towards home.  As we walk, we pass the “sheepherder shacks.”  David and I call them that because the sheepherders sometimes camp there, although we don’t know what their original purpose was or who built them.  Dolly is always fascinated by the junk that is laying around loose near the shacks.  Today, she noses at an old hunk of plywood on the ground as the sun finally slips behind the mountains.  Soon, we won’t even have time for this luxury after school.  Our walks will range closer to home if we can take them at all.  For now it is enough to enjoy the perfect twilight and the companionship of our little herd.

How many dead bugs does it take?

Okay, so I cleaned my house the other day.  I’m not proud of it, but sometimes it just happens.  What happened was that I needed to go to the dump.  See where we live, A. There is no garbage service, and B.  We generate garbage.   I have not yet figured out how to not generate garbage.  Wal-mart doesn’t seem to sell the handy Recyclohome, home recycling center, and in spite of the fact that we own 100 acres, I’m pretty sure the neighbors would notice if we started to bury it all back in the canyon.  So trips to the dump are SOP, literally Sort Of Problematic because the dump is in another state and is only open two days a week so you have to plan these things out.  I usually end up going every 3-4 weeks.   In the fall, if I plan carefully, I time it so that I can go by school and watch the football game too.

Now, your normal trip to the dump does not always precipitate a house cleaning on my part, but this trip happened to coincide with my reaching critical mass.  I don’t know how you clean your house, but the “Critical Mass Method” is how I clean my house.  This is the method whereby you keep noticing the clutter but not doing anything about it until one day, you get tired of looking at all the little dead bug bodies on the bathroom counter and actually begin cleaning something.

My mother-in-law, on the other hand uses the Good Housekeeping approved method of actually cleaning the dirt up when she sees it.  She is the absolute stereotypical, cliché, sitcom mother-in-law.  Her house looks like the staff from Architectural Digest, or maybe Sunset Magazine just finished up a photo shoot, only you never see them because she made them hide, along with all of their equipment, in the closet when she saw you coming up the driveway so the place wouldn’t look cluttered.  This is how she operates:  Say she is sitting innocently on the toilet doing what people normally do there and she looks up and notices a cobweb in the corner of the bathroom.  She will immediately (upon finishing her business) proceed to find a long handled brush or let’s say a small shop vac, which is what I would use.  But let’s say the shop vac is in the garage because my father-in-law has been using it to vacuum his boat, which is where it would be in my house.  She will immediately ask him in strenuous tones to indicate that this is IMPORTANT to please bring it into the house so that she can remove the cobweb.  He will do so (muttering under his breath because all of the Soule men mutter under their breath when put upon by their wives), and he will gallantly remove the cobweb himself because the Soule men are gallant that way.   My Mother-in-law will then suggest that next time he makes a trip to Home Depot (they don’t shop at Wal-Mart) maybe he should buy his own shop vac to keep in the garage strictly for boat vacuuming purposes.

This is how it works in my house.  I will notice as I am sitting on the toilet that there is a cobweb (usually it includes a spider in my house) in the corner.  I will think, “huh, there is a cobweb in the corner.”

I will immediately forget about the whole thing until the next time I use the bathroom.  You see, I’m okay with the spider unless it decides it’s a good idea to move into my shower.  I have been carefully weeding out the spider gene pool to remove the shower-dwelling gene for several years now and I think I’m beginning to have some success at that.  So the spider is really only in danger if I get the shop vac to clean up the cobwebs because then, it just makes sense to remove the spider as well.  In fact, the spider has a better than even chance of living a long and healthy life in my bathroom corner because the next thing that happens is that one day, I accidently happen to notice that the shop vac is not in the closet where it belongs.

Several days (or maybe years) after this, I will actually ask David where the shop vac is.  He will tell me it is in the garage because he has been using it to vacuum his boat and I will say in a very non-strenuous tone “huh, well if you get a chance, bring it in the house so I can use it sometime.”

Then one day as I am walking into the living room, I will trip over the shop vac and think “huh, David moved that into the house.”

Then, finally, after much time has passed, after I have tripped over the shop vac 47,000 times, after the spider has died of old age and is just a desiccated little exoskeleton hanging limply from one of the now multitude of cobwebs draped artfully around my bathroom to the envy of haunted house designers everywhere, I will reach critical mass and I will know that it is time to clean the house.

Only I don’t have time to clean the house…  So I will think about cleaning the house—while I am off riding at a clinic or on the Alzheimer’s ride—while I am off sailing with David on the Delta or Tahoe—while I am visiting my mom—while I am at work.  Until finally, one weekend, the stars align and I need to go to the dump anyway and my horse is lame and David has gone off hiking and I have time—and THEN and ONLY THEN, will I clean the house.

The cleaning itself is pretty unremarkable.  There is the usual amount of windex and pledge involved.  But most of what makes up cleaning in my house is REMOVING CLUTTER  (so having this coincide with a dump trip is a pretty good idea).  Only a portion of the clutter actually goes to the dump.  Most of the clutter is just stuff that has managed to crawl out of whatever place it actually belongs so that it can commune with the other clutter on some flat surface.  Right now, if you go into my laundry room, you will find at least two of my ball caps on the counter or on top of the dryer.  Why aren’t they hanging neatly on their hooks?  Good question.  And there are at least 10 pairs of shoes there.  This might make sense in some cultures, but at least 6 pairs of them ought to be in the bedroom closet.  Coffee table?  Books that ought to be on the book shelves.  Dining room table?  David’s sailing/camping stuff that has inexplicably clawed its way out of its storage container and is attempting to scuttle off of the table and into whatever dark corners it can find.

And the knick-knacks!  There is the decorative Grappa bottle displayed in the living room waiting, I presume, to be joined by other decorative Grappa bottles in the future.  I have to ask myself why I would want to broadcast how much Grappa I drink to casual visitors (one bottle folks—it is still waiting!).  I have to ask myself if I can really drink enough Grappa to make up a collection worth talking about after I get out of rehab and assuming I haven’t just blacked out the entire concept of collecting Grappa bottles.  I have to ask myself if I shouldn’t just recycle it right now and get it over with!

Which brings us to my Mother-in-law’s deepest darkest cleaning secret.  She CONTROLS CLUTTER (with an iron fist)!  If you look in any one of her closets, you will find where all of her clutter hides—banished there along with the Sunset photographers and their equipment.  Every few months, her house has a new “theme” wherein she allows certain items of clutter a reprieve from the dark, as it were, and banishes the old theme items to the closet.  If I were to pull this off, I would need about 8 more closets!  Still, I often think maybe I should spend about an hour once a week banishing clutter—hahahahahahahahaha…

The Moon’s the North Wind’s Cooky

One of the reasons I love living where we do is the seasons.  I know I like to joke about only having two seasons in Nevada—Winter and Road Construction, but the truth is we have four distinct seasons and I love all of them.  It is fall now, and you can see the slashes of color up in the mountains.  The other day, David and I drove up to Obsidian campground with the horse.  He hiked.  I rode.  The color was spectacular.   The aspens rise in rolling benches off of the floor of Molybdenite Creek and each bench seems to be a different shade of amazing.  I had to simply stop the horse and stare at times (or risk riding into a low hanging branch).  Down in the valleys, the leaves are just beginning to turn.  A really good fall is one where we don’t get a huge windstorm until after we’ve had plenty of time to enjoy the color.  My fingers are crossed (as always).

Another thing that happens to me in the fall—usually in early October is that I have to start going down to feed in the dark every morning.  It is then that I am reminded how much I love the waning moon.  It lights my morning excursions to the corrals as long as there are no clouds out.  I have a game I play where I see how little I have to use my flashlight.  For the week after the full moon, I rarely use it at all.  I revel in the almost daylight and marvel at the strength of the shadow it casts.  I use a small light in the hay barn, but navigate to feed through the corrals easily in the glow of moonlight.  As the moon narrows below half in the second week, the light becomes dimmer and dimmer and I have to use my flashlight to get through the rough spots on the trail or risk breaking an ankle.   Finally, it narrows to a mere sliver which amazingly still casts a shadow, but forces me to use my barn spotlights to get around the corrals as I feed.  Even then, Annie who is out of range of the spotlight appears only as a dark shadow, hiccupping in her eagerness to be fed.

Once I finish feeding, I head back up to the house.  My eyes have adjusted almost fully to the darkness by then and it is even easier to walk without light.  It is a good thing the road is fairly smooth here as I am usually gazing at the stars as I walk back.  Orion hangs high in the western sky, locked in eternal battle with Taurus, heralding the approaching advent of winter.  Venus is there, too, perched over the mountains. Often, I will see the steady dim light of a satellite streaming past way overhead.  Several times now, I am pretty sure I’ve seen the International Space Station go by.  It was too bright and too low for a satellite, too steady and too fast for an airplane.   And the Leonids!  It is early, but they are beginning now.  Some mornings I see only one or two quick streaks, but others, there will be 3, 4, even more meteorites dashing across the northern sky.  Sometimes, I stop and try to take it all in.  I try to pick out all of the stars in the Little Dipper, or even more challenging, all seven of the Pleiades.  Even the dim glow of lights from Carson City and Reno are enough to make this difficult.  I love to feel the chill eastern breeze on my face knowing that winter is coming soon.

The moon is gone now.  I am forced to rely on artificial light for the next two weeks until it returns.  The stargazing and the Meteor showers will get better, but it is not such a friendly place out there when the best I can do is poke at the darkness with my ineffectual flashlight beam, pushing it back in one direction while it closes in in another.  It used to creep me out, walking around in the dark imagining mountain lions behind every tree, but now I merely embrace it as part of the cycle.  We will repeat this cycle, the moon and I, waxing and waning, waxing and waning, as the winters themselves wax and wane throughout the cycle of our lives.  Until one day, as I’m heading back from feeding, I will slowly realize that rather than my eyes adjusting, the light itself is softly returning.  By then, Orion will be fading into the east, waving goodbye to me for another year.

The Moon’s the North Wind’s cooky.
He bites it, day by day,
Until there’s but a rim of scraps
That crumble all away.

The South Wind is a Baker.
He kneads clouds in his den,
And bakes a crisp new moon that…greedy
North…Wind…eats…again!

Vachel Lindsay